My sincere apologies, its been almost 365 days since I last wrote a blog post. I’ve had a lot going on!
First of all how are you all doing? These are incredibly strange times full of uncertainty but you’re not alone. I’m here (and here to stay this time I promise!)
Here’s a little life update and how I’m currently getting through quarantine. I question my sanity on a daily basis but I am making the most of this time. I’m using this time off work and being at home to catch up on things I’ve let slide, for example; studying, writing, reading, spending time in my own home which especially over Christmas and the beginning of 2020 was a rarity. I spent last year still feeling overwhelmed and unsure about almost every aspect of my life. I was questioning my career as an equine and canine massage therapist. I used to have such a clear vision of what I wanted my life to look like. I was always so certain that I had it all figured out, time scales and everything. However, things kept happening, setbacks kept coming in strong and I was questioning everything. I lost that vision and for the first time I had absolutely no idea where I was going, what I wanted and it terrified me. I’m a control freak over my life and I have to know everything so not knowing my future was unsettling. I lost my cool big time and was heading in the direction of some kind of breakdown. I felt like I was going insane.
Over Christmas 2019 and new year 2020 I decided I just needed some time and to give myself a break, I (as cliche as it sounds) needed to do some serious soul searching and I will tell you its the best thing I’ve ever done. It’s been ugly at times don’t get me wrong this isn’t a picture perfect, jetting off and travelling the world to “find yourself”. This has been a journey of true self discovery and most importantly healing. I know I still have a way to go and obstacles to face but I know now I’m back on the right track. I’ve considered all of my options and discovered I still want the same life I always envisioned growing up. I rediscovered my passion for horses and figured out how I don’t have to give up writing I just have to balance it out. Having this time to stop and reflect has taught me some things; 1) knowing that sometimes the best thing you can do is stop and breathe. 2) You don’t have to have it all figured out! Life will always throw curve balls and give you setbacks and things don’t always go to plan and you have to be ok with that. 3) Finding your own soul purpose is the most amazing of all. It makes you see things for how they really are and you start really living and feeling not just being and doing. You do things that truly nourish your soul not just pay the bills but make you miserable. 4) rediscovering and making time for things I love doing, writing, photography, reading, being creative. 5) Materialistic things just aren’t important. The upmost important thing of all is the health and wellbeing of your friends and loved ones. 6) never take bing able to see someone or hug them for granted.
Also dying my hair with tissue paper is going to be my new obsession :O
I don’t want to bore you with too much more I just want to check in and remind you all to stay safe. Isolation can make us feel alone but no one has to feel like that. After all we are in May, Mental Health awareness Month. Feel free to reach out to me, either by email or find me on my social media links.
I’m very much looking forward to getting back to work at the pub, I miss all my work friends and family (even the annoying customers I will never take for granted again!)
I’ll speak to you all in my next post, which I promise will be within the next 30 days not 300!
Much love, Jess x
Jessica Stone 